We spent ages getting ready, listening to music and such. Graeme texted us and said he'd be late to the party because of work, and we knew Jonathan was going to be late anyway because of Wimbledon. So, we waited in the tent for a while and then kinda just hung around in the garden aimlessly for another hour. Graeme got there at about nine or so, perhaps quarter to. Then Tom, Danielle and Becca's dad returned from their TaeKwon Doe competition. Sporting medals. Tom won a Bronze, and Elle managed to come home with a Gold and is the best at sparring under sixteen in the country now. So, we were all proud of them.
Tom and Daniella joined us for a while, then Jonathan got to the party...and then Thomas was sent to bed at about 9:30, after he'd eaten. Elle stayed rather a while longer until around ten. When Jonathan got there I can't say I really acknowledged him very much, then...not sure exactly when but he complimented my appearance. It was something like 'I don't believe I've complimented you on your appearance yet. You look ravishing...' and then I think there was something like 'and quite ravishable'. Hmmm...that did make me smile though.
Um...yes, there was a lot of standing around done by myself because people seem to move once I sit down and I haven't done anything wrong. :( I guess I just have an evil aura! Anyway, when Graeme went to get a drink...and because my legs were starting to hurt I sat down on the edge of the bench were he and Jonathan were sitting, leaving loads of space for Graeme. Graeme came back and glared at me and said 'you have stolen my position!' I pointed out all the space but Graeme just did the 'ahhhhh' thing, and waggled his finger at me. Next thing I knew, Jonathan pulled me down the bench and next to him. Graeme kinda looked at us and then went off and it did take me a while to notice but Jon had his arm around my part of the bench...but, I didn't mind, obviously :P
Wow by Kylie came on at one point when I was sitting on the bench (after Jonathan had gotten up) and he ended up serenading me, I guess. It was rather amusing...and flattering...and embarrassing all at the same time. But, not in a bad way...God he's cute. Arg,..shush mind!
He kept pointing at me, doing spins and stuff while singing the song...which was quite funny, and a few times he came up the path and leaned in very close to me to sing certain parts. Part of me had concluded that I was probably bright red by then.
There was a lot of fascination with glowsticks at the party too...which was a little annoying at times. To be honest. But, yeah anyway, later on, after Graeme had left because he had work the next day (Graeme left at quarter past eleven) we were sitting on the trampoline - that's Becca and I - at least...I think Graeme had left by then, but no matter. So,I had my arms around my knees and then Jonathan kind of sighed...for no apparent reason and walked around to my side of the trampoline and then he stood behind me and put his arms around my shoulders, rested his chin on my shoulder and ended up so that we were cheek to cheek, and then the conversation just kinda carried on as before. But, once more Becca said something along the lines of 'I'm serious, guys. if you two start making out, I'm kicking you out'. I was more stunned that it seemed like that, to be honest. But, he just smiled and then said something along the lines of 'that boat in your front garden must be useful for something.' and Becca went 'as long as your out of my view!' and then he half turned to me, grinned and said 'How 'bout it?'. I took this as a complete joke, to be honest and just laughed. Stuff like that always makes me feel really uncomfortable because I never know what I'm supposed to say in reply. I mean, I probably would...I mean, obviously I'd want to make-out with him. I think that much should be obvious! Arg...but, when I talked to Becca the next morning and I asked why she kept saying about the 'no making out' thing, apparently we looked like we were about to start making out quite a lot of the time...which, well, it quite amused me, if I'm honest. I hadn't noticed...
Maybe I am just bad at picking up hints? James says I am.
Um...then a few times Becca and I had wrestling matches which Jonathan was a little too pleased by, and of course started him singing "Girl fight, tonight!" but, it was funny, to me anyway. But, I don't know...maybe it's odd, but I really don't mind that kind of proximity with girls or being considered by guys like that...but Becca does. And, to be honest, my view point is, well, why should it matter? I don't like girls and therefore physical proximity or contact with other girls makes no difference to me. I get a big blank nothing. Guys on the other hand...don't get me started on how badly they affect me. Which, I suppose is a sure-fire sexuality test...maybe Becca secretly is unsure? I mean, it wouldn't surprise me considering the amount of friends I have which are like that.
Um...then we went into the tent, eventually.
At some point along the way I had gained Jonathn's shirt over my dress, because I got cold...I think Graeme was still around when that happened though. So, yeah...Jonathan obviously had another top on underneath...shameeeeeee. :')
Then we watched Step Up in the tent, it was Jonathan's choice too. But, as he'd mentioned he had seen and owned Step Up 2 to me when we were in CEX on Thursday I assumed he might like to watch Step Up and took it with me. It was a good film actually.
Then when the film finished we kinda sat in silence for a while and then Jonathan asked what we could do next...and yes, I did plant the idea of Truth or Dare...but, I did it subtly enough that it made it seem like it was Becca's idea. Haha. Most of the truth, I don't remember, I avoided them. I hate truths. But, Becca dared me to put these glowsticks around my neck (they were like chockers) and then it was Jonathan's turn to be truth'd or dared and he chose dare. becca then dared him to take the glowsticks off my neck (five of the eight) using just his mouth. I was a little stunned by this and went 'a...ah...waa???' but, Jonathan seemed game enough. So, I got instructed to move my hair out of the way and he just went ahead with the dare. Okay, OH MY GOD, I totally almost fainted. I seriously don't know why, but...it was just weird...it was probably something about having him so close...and taking something off my neck, I don't know...but, I can't say it was exactly a bad feeling. Though, was pretty sure I was going to have a heartattack or something. Haha. And, that would have been a shame...oh, actually...dammit, my brain is so terrible!
Anyway, then, I'm not sure if it was in retaliation...not that the dare was exactly terrible to begin with...but, who knows...maybe he didn't want to go that close to me? *shrug* figures. Anyway, he dared Becca to take the remaining three from around my neck using only her mouth. Which was...rather annoying actually. Hence what I said about sexuality before...when he was near me it was interesting...when it was Becca it was a little like 'do hurry up!' She almost strangled me a few times too. Then Jonathan was telling her a better way to get them off because she was failing...and I was like 'you've developed a technique for taking things off my neck?! What?' and they were talking about it seriously...he really was taking it rather seiously when he said it. But anyway, after almost dying from being tugged at by the neck I was freed. Thank God.
So, possibly in retaliation to that, Becca made Jonathan put a glowstick bracelet on his wrist (incidentally the one with the shag bands on), one around his thigh (because I complained about foot...because no offense to anyone, I just don't like feet. And then two around his neck, and I was dared to take them off with just *my* mouth. Arg. I was also then given a time limit to the end of the playing song...which game me about a minute and a half. So, naturally I started with the wrist...avoiding the shag bands very carefully, then the thigh. James said he'd have been worried about that one, but, to be honest...to me, the neck would be worst, and hardest to get off. I was right.
It was so difficult, and I finally got one of them off, and then for the life of me the other one wouldn't come off. And, then Jonathan started laughing and his shoulders hunched, so I couldn't get to his neck and I was running out of time and dreaded a forefit, eventually I forced him to move his shoulders down, and then I had to try again...I accidentally bit his neck in the process but I got it off...with about a second to spare. I apologised to biting him, obviously...but he really didn't seem to mind. Which, struck me as a little odd. I just hope I didn't leave a mark...:S
Then...some truths and dares later...Becca (evil queen she is) plus, she's been drinking alcohol, so I think she may have been on the verges of drunk....she dared me to play suck or blow with Jonathan. Which, if you haven't seen the film 'Clueless' is where you pass a playing card (well, it was a playing card with us) it's usually a piece of paper, from one person to another mouth to mouth. You have to basically suck in air to keep the playing card to your lips, and then pressing it to the other eprson lips, they do the same and then you blow on the playing card to let go...kinda. That sounds wrong the way I've described it. But, if you drop the playing card, you have to kiss. Essentially, I was put in a position where, if I didn't play I forefitted...and the forefit (much to Jonathan's obvious amusement...and I doubt pleasure, but you never know) was that I'd have to take off every item of clothing that Jonathan had bought. Which just so happened to be my dress and his shirt. Sadly, I knew he'd bought his shirt as I was with him when he got it. So...I couldn't not do the dare, but if I failed the dare...not only would I have to kiss him I'd still have to forefit. She'd backed me into a corner because I knew I would drop the card as I couldn't keep it to my lips. But, after much dithering...of about 15 minutes plus, I agreed. Thing was, that, Jonathan seemed to avoid looking at me at all until he really had to...and I don't know...that made me feel worse, because if he was against it I wasn't going to try and make him. And, then he just went 'I don't mind' so that seemed so...cold that I got even more worried. Anyway, somehow (it must have been 4am courage) I went along with it, didn't drop it, got the card to his lips...which I must say was odd, it's like kissing someone but with a piece of paper in the way. :S and when i moved back we dropped the card. Except I was let off my forefits...I dunno why.
I guess, part of me wanted to kiss him...okay, I really did...but, at the same time...I was really scared and Becca was watching etc etc. Which made me against the idea. I'm not sure if I hurt his feelings though, because I made such a fuss about it. I only made a fuss because I was nervous, not because I didn't want to...I was terrified that if I had to kiss him he'd pull away or something...and bloody hell we're supposed to be dating. ARG. Life! And, after that his whole attitude towards me changed to really cold...which made me feel bad. :(
But, I guess I understand...and anyway, who could like me that much? No one...pah!
Anyway, then the game peatered out at about 6 am, and we decided to watch Man In The Iron Mask. Becca decided to go to sleep and while I was watching it with him, I kinda curled up on the sleeping bag and fell asleep myself. I was wrapped in two sleeping bags...
Next thing, after having some warped dream where we replayed the party, except I actually wasn't a wimp and I took my forefit, I woke up at about 8:40 am and...one thing I immediately noticed was that he'd gone. We knew he had to leave at about 8am...but, I didn't expect it. It felt very...empty without him. Then 'Girl Fight Tonight' came into my head and I decided to go back to sleep. Then I woke up again at about 11, and Becca had woken up and said 'he left us a note' and said 'did i miss it then?' and she said 'no, it was in the kitchen, with the back door keys on top. So, we worked out that he would have had to find the keys, open the back gate, find pen and paper and leave it for us, then leave. I also realised that I was still wearing his shirt. I had just assumed that he'd wake me up for his shirt before he left...but, you know. I managed to fall alseep in fishnets, short shorts, a tutu and Jonathan's shirt. >___<>
Anyway, then we got up, and went to Becca's room, got changed and decided to go and buy breakfast from the co-op...so we walked...it was so hot! And I was wearing tiny short...anyway, breakfast was nice, then we tidied the tent, chatted about the party. Becca told Elle what happened with the Suck or Blow game (that's the name of the card game...nothing else) which she promised not to do...but anyway, I seriously had to go 'did I actually do all of that?' and becca went 'yes, you did' I spent most of the day being appauled with myself...I mean seriously just going 'oh my God! I really did that? How did I have that much courage? What was I on...did you drug me, becca?' etc.
Then I went home...eventually...and screwed things up even more with Jon...great-y-great...:( But, should be seeing him on Tuesday so, I guess that'll be good.
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