Enterprising Young Men

Ah, so, I blogged, when was it? Last Tuesday, I think. I feel sure it was at some insanely early hour of the day. In any case, what have I been up to since last week?
Actually, that's a very good question to be asking myself, isn't it? I can't really remember very much of it.
Well, on Wednesday...I was supposed to be seeing my friend who was visiting me from New Zealand, Katie. It was just my type of luck really that her mother had gotten the dates wrong and was unable to meet up with me. Though, I am well used to this type of misfortune in my life, it was rather disheartening. As, I hadn't seen her for an entire eight years, and much as I was slightly nervous about seeing her after so long, I was nevertheless rather excited about it. However, fate being the cruel mistress ( wait, I have a mistress?!) that she is, it was not to be and she was forced to cancel on moi.

As it was, Jonathan was going to come with us, mainly to act as 'older person to enable our parents to let us stay out later and make sure we stayed out of trouble'. So, because Jonathan is not in touch with the twenty-first centuary in terms of handheld cellular communication, I was forced to send him a Facebook thread, though a mere twenty minutes before our meeting time as that was literally when I discovered my abandonment. Therefore, I went into Kingston anyway as I couldn't very well just leave him there...on his own, with no way of telling him and looking all pathetic...awwww, that's such an adorable mental image! Except, Jonathan doesn't do pathetic looks. Well, not often, at least.

I got there just as he did, even though i was a quarter of an hour lte, for which I was thankful that I hadn't been early, or even on time and forced to wait for him. I have started to wonder whether or not he's stopped trying to be on time to meet me because I am always invariably late to most everything I have to attend. And, chances being if the other party is early, I shall be later than normal.

He didn't actually say hello to me, he simply commented on the awesome-ness of my hat. Which, admittedly was quite an awesome hat, but, still. A greeting is not overly difficult, or has human communication involing common courtesy become obsolete? Most probably in all honesty.
In any case, I managed to explain what was going on about Katie ( although with some resistance from my tongue which refused to form words properly for several seconds - much as my fingers seem to be emulating with my typing at this moment in type).
In any case, he seemed unphased and simply asked what I wanted to do instead. And, as we had decided we would go to the cinema on Thursday (making up for not going on Tuesday) he suggested we simply went then. Which we did.

We went to see 'Public Enemies' starring Johnny Depp and it was excellent. However, tremendously sad and tragic. I cried. Twice. But, we also managed to not have Orange Wednesday codes too, which was a well done on our part. So, as per, I paid. And, then Jonathan said that should be it on the whole my paying for cinema trips...although, really, I think I should still owe him at least two more cinema trips, if he wants to say that, fine with me. I won't take away his chance to be gallant, or whatever it is...

Anyway, after the film we went to Borders to get Jack a present, and then i said I wanted cake so we dropped in at Patisserie Valarie. I bought myself a chocolate chip muffin and then we walked to the park. Sometimes...I don't think he understands a thing about me, to be honest, but, he's a guy so he sees things in a different way to begin with. But, I think we became closer at the same time...possibly? Anyway, when we said goodbye I got a very nice hug etc. and spoke to him later that evening...he said one thing that confused me quite some deal though.

Next day I went to Wales etc. Got home on Monday morning. Didn't do much.
Jonathan's gone on holiday...won't see him for quite some time. But, will just have to get over it.
I am seriously starting to get confused about his sexuality...and it's scaring me actually. I don't even know why but there's gotta be something amiss when he flirts with another guy! Even if he's like extra anti hugging of guys etc in real life...it just strikes me as odd.
Anyway, I am going to trust him absolutely, and if god for bid things get to a point where I just don't know anymore, I might have to take Jamie's advice...

I'd better just forget about it.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I'd like to shoot someone right now. God, preferably if we knew for certain one way or the other (if he is real, I mean) and if he could be shot anyway if that were true.
I pretty much feel like he doesn't care about me one iota, I mean, he bloody replied to the main thread but not our private one, so, it's like, thanks. Arg. I'm almost glad I'm away when he gets back! I mean, what has he done to show me he likes me, really? FGS, I've been going out with him for , what, seven weeks and he hasn't even kissed me. Maybe I'm just repulsive. I don't know anymore. :'( I suppose I'm not exactly helping things myself, but, he's the guy, which may be stereotypical of me, but, call me old fashioned, if he likes me he should just show it. Because, as if I would ever reject him in any way. That's my biggest weakness.

I'm going to go and talk to Jamie about how unattractive we are for a while and then ask my mother if she'll buy me a DVD and a book tomorrow. Because Push is out on DVD now :)
Sorry for being angsty, just feeling low. I do miss him. It doesn't help when he seems not to care.
And that he didn't say goodbye to me on Monday when I spoke to him...
Well, I'm off.