I Gotta Feeling

Right...so...after seeing James and Jon once I got home...hmm.
On Sunday the 6th I met up with Fia :D
I gave her her GDL autograph and then we got Shake Away, which was yummy.
Then we went and sat down by the side of the river and listened to my ipod, Labyrinth soundtrack and watched the wave and a balloon floating down it. We then decided that a giant starfish lives in the thames (after discussing sea-creature horror films) and that they have rubber duck minons, the balloon belongs to them and they fell in love with a tree...who, was a tree and didn't love them back...being a tree and all.
Then we realised we were sitting on tar, oily stuff which we had thought wasn't sticky but was...and I have black lines on the backs on the knees on my skinnies. Haha.

Anyway, we hung out for ages and I subjected Fia to my music taste for a while...she doesn't like BoysLikeGirls...shame :( or BassHunter... etc lol.
I also saw Sammii and Dizzy in Kingston, who walled down to me from a floor above in the bentall centre and I couldn't work out where it was coming from...so much so that I had begun wondering if it was God suddenly showing himself...with a girl's voice...:/
Anyway, then Sammii told me that she's dating my friend David Pike, which is awesome, 'cause David's rather awesome and has an awesome coat haha.
I also saw Georgia and Tom and i didn't really expect her to have a chat with me as she was with her boyfriend but she stopped me and started chatting ( personally, i think it was just because she wanted to tell me she'd been scouted for a dance group in America while on holiday during the summer). But, anyway, it was nice to see her.
Saw some other people too, but can't remember who exactly.

Then on Tuesday 8th Jonathan and I went to visit Catherine (and Alison as she was there too.)
Also for human petting zoo for Jonathan to meet my friends. He met Leila, Carys and Ivan. He told Leila what a Rainbow party was...which is not what I wanted her to know and seems to like her...as he complimented her on my note while I was away...shame he never compliments me so quickly...and even then it's rarely :(
But, anyway, he also said he thought I should be Orange (Rainbow party colour) for no apparent reason...and then when I asked 'even if it wasn't you?' he said 'No, I don't really get jealous.' Which, actually really worried me...to be honest. Because, one, he can't think much of me if he thinks I'd do that, or just doesn't find me attractive so would rather I was off with someone else. Added to that, if he was condoning that, wtf does he think is okay for him?
So, I can't even ask him because bringing it up would be hard for me...and I don't want to hear that what I just expressed above is true :'( but it's worrying me.

Um...yeah, then that night he went away to kent for three days, and I then went away for the weekend, so only got back on Monday morning.
My mum was at work and I couldn't get hold of her so I ended up at the malden centre...and Jon turned out to be working, which...I didn't really realise :( apprently he noticed me, but, I also left before he got off work...
He thought I might have come to see him, which I hadn't...but, to be honest, I'd be interested to know if he'd even have wanted me to come and see him.
Anyway, then the next day I asked him to meet up, 'cause I wanted to see him, I guess. And it happened to be raining a lot so he told me to come over to his.
I look kind of drowned when i got there, tbh, and ended up being made to wearhis fleece 'cause i was shivering. I got to watch Interview With The Vampire, which was quite good, but not that great. I prefer the book as of the moment.
I subtly asked my mum if I'd be allowed to watch IWTV some time and she said no because I'd find it scary...well, now i just won't tell her I've seen it, but I didn't find it scary, really. Little sad though, I almost cried. Which is something when in front of people, because I can usually stop myself.
Anyway, he made me go home wearing his jumper lol.

Um...so, it's Thursday and I saw him for a little while today, he met me outside school and we walked into kingston, but he was meeting his sisters, so, he went off and I was meeting my mum. Though, I don't think he told his sisters he'd seen me because we saw the three of them and they looked surprised to see me, and he gave me a look I can't quite define...half like 'help me' and...I dunno...I don't know if he was pleased to see me or not to be honest :(
Anyway, I shall see him tomorrow and apparently have to address the one thing that's been on my mind for ages...but how I bring it up, I don't know...*sigh*
I really hope he never reads my blog.