Postcards, Postcards, Postcards.

Ah, well, it's been ages since I updated my blog. I just couldn't get around to it before.
I can't remember everything that's ahppened recently but, I went away to tenby last month for a week, which was nice. I did lots of surfing and made a new friend called Sian.
Well, anyway, since then, I've been back and forth between Wales and England quite a lot.
I've been able to meet up with Jack, which is very nice, as sometimes we can go up to six months without seeing each other.

I went to the Gareth David - Lloyd signing in Cardiff with Jack on the 18th of August, which was fun, but, mad and Jack is totally in love with GDL. Which is cute and slightly creepy at times.
But, nevertheless, lovely friend that I am (hah) I got autogrpahs for Fia, Alison and Carys. Anna is miffed with me because I forgot her, but I bought her an un-personalised signed copy (which costed a lot) so she better be pleased come Christmas!

Um...I've been up to London with my mum a few times, whihc has been really nice. I went to Forbidden Planet for the first time, it's actualyl so awesome there! There are so many comics downstairs, I feel like I want to just buy the entire shop! I got Furuba 23, because I just needed to know what happened at the end, then borrowed 22 from Anna. yesterday I sat down and read them, after re-reading 21. I cried so much. Seriously, I'm such a cry-baby. It was so...lovely, really. I know that sounds awfully silly of me, but, the idea of sucha thing happening is beyond my faith in humans. It's too beautiful and perfect, which is why it's so sad. It hurts knowing that, it's unlikely that things like that will ever happen.

I didn't like the very end though, showing Kyo and Tohru as old people...it...ruined it for me. Because, then i started thinking about all of them dying, and how I didn't want to know the end end of their story...just to know that it would be okay. I like Akito, Akito is awesome. Even if she was a total bitch for 20/ 23 volumes.

Anyway, as I was away I sent postcards to quite a few of my friends, and lovely that they are (well, three of them are) i got postcards back when they went away :D
One from Anna in Newcastle, one from James in Edinburough, and one from Alison and Catherine in the Norfolk Broads. James has beautiful handwriting...it's scarily pretty haha.
And, Anna addressed hers to 'Frankie Da Philmeister',which made me headdesk.

Over the holidays i've readthe entire Night Watch trilogy, which was excellent, and I'm planning to read the follow up soon. I finished City of Glass, the last Last Mortal Instruments book, which was lovely. Why do they always end with a happily-ever-after? I mean, I'm not complaining (much) but, whyalways end a story with a perfect relationship, true love and all? It's so...unlikely! And, it annoys me, because...the whole thing is, you *want* it to be the type o thing that happens...but, that's not the way life is.
I also read Fragile Eternity, the third Wicked Lovely book, which was interesting but not as good as the previous two. There was too much stuff like New Moon! But, Seth is awesome...and so is Niall and Keenan (even if he is a total bastard).

Oh, I love this song! Futatsu No Kdou to Akai Tsumi- On/ Off (Vampire Knight) it's a lovely song...it makes me smile every time, and I don't know why...it's actually pretty depressing (the lyrics).
Haha, weird...

Anyway, what else has happened...
I saw my friend Bejal who was visiting from Dubai, and will be back at Christmas, so I'm looking forward to that. 'Cause Toby and I didn't get to catch up, sadly. (Toby's her twin).
I'm seeing Lewis for coffee tomorrow and then Laura for lunch. So, that should be fun, and then on Tuesday Jonathan and I are having a Heroes marathon. Which...should be fun...

The most stupid thing at the moment, is that loads of people from my scho9ol keep greeting my on face book like this:
'Hey, :D How's the boyfriend?' , or, 'Hiya, you still with Hancock?' and several different variations of this. The thing is...the people who are asking me, are not people who should know! I have, however, worked out that, most of them know his sisters quite well...:/

Um, today I had to mediate a scarily de ja vu argument between Kerry-Anne and Karyn. It was almost exactly like what happened when heather and I stopped being friends...down to ending up with a mediater between the two( though, rather than it being Jonathan, of course, in this case, it was me). The stupid thing is, kerry was being so immature! There was nothing that Karyn had done, I could see that, even impartially, and she was convinced that ignoring Karyn and deleting her from her Facebook was 'mature' pah. Bullshit. It wasn't. Then she had a go at me for telling her she was being unfair to Karyn, because, well she was. Karyn's lost her mum and all of that, so how does she deserve to have more things go wrong for her? ARG!

I have found a liking for Paramore and Linkin Park, I'm practically addicted to them. I went on for five days with 'In Pieces' bu Linkin Park on repeat. *sigh* I wasn't sure why...but, I have worked it out now, or more, Jonathan did before I did. Eurgh. I'm so stupid sometimes.

And, the other bloody stupid thing is, that Becca still seems to be trying to make me feel bad for some reason. I spoke to her today, and, she basically said she was still miffed with me for not telling her I was going out with him for a whole month. I mean, she was the first person that i actually told! (Aside from James, but James was kinda the one who got me to ask in the first place). Anyway, so I went to say 'well, I'll make sure to tell you immediately next time' got to the next time bit, and then was kinda like 'well...er'...because, silly that I am, if I think of things as doomed it really makes me feel like crap. And, she went 'Well, there probably will be a next time' and I went 'Er...yeah, but...not in the next month at least, I hope'.
And, you know what? She said something very quietly, which she then refused to tell me what it was, or repeat and said it wasn't important and then said she was tired and had to go. Thing is, I swear she said 'I wouldn't be so sure about that.' and, because I'm the way I am, it made me wonder if he'd said something...and, I know I'm a complete weirdo and stuff...but, it hurt. Because, well, after everything and feeling rubbish about things and stuff, I was actually feeling really good these past two weeks or so. Yet, somehow...as soon as she gets back and I talk to her...that doubt appeared again. I don't understand.

I wonder if any of that makes sense, but, you know, it got me very confused.
Oh, f*ck I wish I'd shut up. I need to shoot myself one of these days.

But, anyway, I watched this film called 'Awake' with hayden Christensen and Jessica Alba last night, it was supposedly Psycological horror...psh. It wasn't scary in the least bit! I actually expected something, because I'm a fraidy cat, but it was such a wimpy horror film, to be honest. It didn't even scare me a tiny bit.
Then I watched Just my Luck, which again, makes me feel bleh.

You know, I am very suspicious at this moment in time...
Mostly, it's because of something that Jonathan said on Thursday, and this isn't a self-doubt thing...this is just...normal stuff.
He mentioned my blog...and said about how I only updated it when Fia nagged me. Well, when I asked him how he knew that...he said 'I can read you mind' and I never did get it out of him, but, as i've said before, I believe...I have this niggling idea that he's read my blog himself. Because, honestly, how else would he have known about Becca being a problem the first time, and about how Fia has to nag me to update? I've only mentioned them on my blog, and to no-one else...and when I didn't tell him what happened when becca and I argued, I know he must have known exactly what happened and Becca didn't tell him.
Therefore, I now plan to be very careful what I mention in my blog, and yes, I mentioned the conversation for a reason...because it was bothering me and writing it down makes it go away.

It would be cool if he could read minds though...haha.
Then again, if he'd read my blog he'd have known--actually, not going there. haha.
I'm not sure if I want to see Becca quite yet...but I've promised to go up to Guildford with her, ice skating, which I'd love to do...it's just that it's hard to not come away feeling bad about myself...which is silly.

I'm working on some Fanfiction at the moment...but it's not going very quickly for once. I think I'm experiencing what it's like to have no ideas! I don't like it!!!!!!
I think I need a hug, and to go to bed soon...haha.
Arg, now I'm listening to 'can You Feel the Love Tonight ?'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARG! Bleh! Eurgh! and Meh!

I'll miss him when he goes to university...I'll miss all my friends that go to university. It'll be sad to see then go.

But, nevertheless, I'm okay, Kevin's been cheering me up a bit and talking about paradoxes of information and stuff, which is nice. I'll have a nice time tomorrow and just try to forget what she said.

Anyway, I'm going to go to bed now, I feel a little ill :(