Love You More.

I had such a good day today! Well, not the best, but, good.
I went into school in order to take my last Module (E) and I passed with 80%!!! Which means I have finished! Done! Finito! En fin! Termina! Etc. You get the idea.
Before I took the exam, as requested, I went to talk to Mister. Peters about the accident. That was fine, Mister Peters is such a lovely guy.
Then I went into New Malden to go and buy myself a drink, and then walked back to meet Marika, Lauren and Katie. We walked into Kingston. Mii-chan and I got the bus, and then we met Dizzy and sammii. We got McDonald's (chips) and then we went to meet Nico. Nico's cool, I like him :) he's very funny, and smart and we got along very well.
I stayed out 'till 8pm lol!!!
Anyway, seeing Marika, Katie and Lauren tomorrow, we're going to go and play DDR and Marika's going to give me Ancafe music. :D <3 yaya

I'm pleased, because Jonathan sent us a group thread message which was longer than three lines. He misses us, well, I'm not sure exactly who he was talking to...it was kind of ambiguous really, but, at least if he meant all of us, I am icluded in that :D
Oh well, I'm going away tomorrow so, that should be good. I think ¬_¬
Damn I miss that boy - fool that I am.
Lauren and Marika (who have seen me with him) say we look cute together, like really cute, which was both embarrasing and nice to hear. :)
Well, I'm off now. Farewell!

Anything But Ordinary.

Right...it's been a while. Last blogged on Wednesday.
Welll, It's been hectic. I forgot to emntion the other day that, one, I passed module five with 87 percent :D yay! Only module E left now. And, when I saw Jack last Saturday we had a lot of fun. We sat around playing on his Mac and watching funny movies in five seconds videos on Youtube. then we played on his iPod Touch, and his younger sister, Amy had a little chat with me and was shooed by Jack ahaha. Then we went into the dining room and Jack played the piano for a while, which is my new message alert ( Jack playing Doomsday on the piano) it's so pretty. And, he can play...'Bad Day' which we sang along to.
Then we decided to go out for lunch so we walked down to Penarth and had lunch at the Oucho Club. It was so expenive haha, but, it was also hilarious because Jack wanted to hear all about the sleepover, and he said that we sounded worse than his friends were.

Then he told me all about this girl he hates at school who's really two-faced etc, and we planned what would happen when I meet her...it was rather evil, as usaul. Then we talked about introducing me to Kirsty when i'm down in Wales next, apparently she wants to meet me, which is lovely but kinda scary.I get so scared of new people.
Anyway, then we walked back to his house, Sophie (his older sister who goes to Oxford) came and said hi, and his mum came home and said hello and asked how I was etc. Then Jackand I were going to play Guitar Hero but his grandparents were in the living room watching the television sowe deicded to go up to his room instead.
He told me all about their hallowe'en party last year and his plan for the next one, which was hilarious and kinda creepy and he threw a severed foot at me when we were messing around. We decided to play board games, one was this one about little caniballs and I got eaten all the time...i basically lost four times. Then we thought we'd play Cluedo SFX, which involved us getting it out of the cupboard and the cupboard collapsing on us, but then we sat down on his bedroom floor and played the game. His dad came in to see what was going on because of the noise, and asked me how I was etc. Then obth his sisters came in at different times to find out what the noise was. Amy stayed a while and watched my hand to see if I was winning. I lost two games then we gave up playing.

So, we started playing articulate, which is an incredibly funny game if you haven't played it, I recommend it. At one point Jack ended up having to describe a word and our conversation went like this:
Jack: 'kay, you get like this when you're not getting any.
Me: Horny?
Jack: *roll eyes* No.
Me: Bored?
Jack: No!
Me: Not getting what, by the way?
Jack: *cough*
Me: I was right. Desperate?
Jack: Yep.

This is our type of conversation. there was also another that was rather funny:
Jack: It's a fruit, and it's purple
Me: A carrot?
Jack, Purple...and a fruit and you got carrot?!
Me: Let's not get technical.
Jack: I get they're purple...but...

Then of course there was when I got the word 'stradle' which was impossible to describe (as I didn't think, like riding a horse...shows how in the gutter my mind is) without sounding incredibly wrong.

The best one though, had to be one that I was describing to Jack, it was a person and this is what happened.
Me: Religion.
Jack: Um...
Me: it's...it's the guy with the china, and tibet and the religion thingy.
Jack: Dali Lama.
Me: Yep.

Another good one was Jack's: He lives in the Vetigan and wears a big hat.
Me: the Pope.

It really is a great game. Also, Jack has concluded that my mind is worse than his simply because I was looking around his room, mentioned his duvet and said about playing twister. His Duvet had the twister board on it...I think i commented about playing Twister like that...haha, he got what I meant. >__<>__<>__< haha.

Oh, right, I almost forgot - Torchwood. Well, in short : OMFG, NO!
Ianto!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to send instant coffee packets like Jack to BBC Wales. lol. Overall, the series was well written and emotionally connective. It addressed many issues concerning the human nature, natural selection and self-preservation. it asked questions about government that probably should be asked and questioned what's for our protection or not. It also looked into loss and sacrifice. One thing I wonder is why frobochure had to die, though, as in the end they are all saved I admit it looked like they wouldn't be. However, the ending of the series was pretty bleak and I agree with what fia said I thought the same. Torchwood seems wrapped up. However, I can see the possiblity of Gwen, Rhys and Lois working in Torchwood again. There is still a rift in Cardiff, after all. My opinion is that (because, yes, Fia, jack is in the next series of Doctor Who) wherever he's beamed himself to Jack will fortuitously meet with the doctor just in time to have to battle some force threatening some form of civilization or collection of persons. This will then show Jack that what he does best is save people, prompting angst and some form of moving pep talk from the Doctor where jack will then realise he cannot run away. Then he should go back to earth and see Gwen and Rhys' baby, it will be a boy and name Ianto probably. Jack will visit Ianto's graveand possibly he will go and silently do something for his daughter, Alice.
This is the way it should be.

Unless they find a way to bring back Ianto, then he should be brought back and this would be the only difference.

Sunday today, nothing much of interest took place. I'm going to see Marika tomorrow, as I'm leaving for holidays on tuesday and sadly miss her leaving party and get back the day AFTER she leave for Japan.
I got the Vampire speical of SFX magazine. it's awesome. It had the top fifty vampires of screen and television. Guess who won? Oh yeah - Spike, as portrayed by james Marsters!!!!! Hell, yeah! He's awesome.
I have realised three things about myself while reading the magazine though:
I have three main fetishes.
-Voices. As in, if someone has a nice voice I am totaly in love haha, well, not exactly. But, still.
-Vampires
-Blond hair, peroxide blond or not.
I've also realised that I'm addicted to hugs, and that nice boys with a hint of bad boy, or bad boys who are really complete sweethearts are the way to go for me. usually good boys though...Mathew is a prime example of bad judgement on my part before and I'd never go out with someone like him again.
Lucky really - 'cause what I have is kinda perfect to me. Not that I'd tell him - it would swell his ego far too much for his own good. Anyway, I'm lucky, and deep down I am happy but I worry too much, I think part of me thinks I don't deserve this and is trying to find something wrong with it. :'( But, awww, gosh, he's so cute...haha. Darn it, he really is.
Spoke to Karyn today, I think I may be able to persuade her to come and re-take her GCSEs.
That's it for now.
I have the Star Trek and Labyrinth Soundtracks - they're awesome. :D
Going to see toby and Bejal when they're in England. Bejal gave me their number so that when I get back from hols I can ring them and then we can arrange meeting up. I'd quite like to introduce them to my friends...:)

Long life and prosperity.

Enterprising Young Men

Ah, so, I blogged, when was it? Last Tuesday, I think. I feel sure it was at some insanely early hour of the day. In any case, what have I been up to since last week?
Actually, that's a very good question to be asking myself, isn't it? I can't really remember very much of it.
Well, on Wednesday...I was supposed to be seeing my friend who was visiting me from New Zealand, Katie. It was just my type of luck really that her mother had gotten the dates wrong and was unable to meet up with me. Though, I am well used to this type of misfortune in my life, it was rather disheartening. As, I hadn't seen her for an entire eight years, and much as I was slightly nervous about seeing her after so long, I was nevertheless rather excited about it. However, fate being the cruel mistress ( wait, I have a mistress?!) that she is, it was not to be and she was forced to cancel on moi.

As it was, Jonathan was going to come with us, mainly to act as 'older person to enable our parents to let us stay out later and make sure we stayed out of trouble'. So, because Jonathan is not in touch with the twenty-first centuary in terms of handheld cellular communication, I was forced to send him a Facebook thread, though a mere twenty minutes before our meeting time as that was literally when I discovered my abandonment. Therefore, I went into Kingston anyway as I couldn't very well just leave him there...on his own, with no way of telling him and looking all pathetic...awwww, that's such an adorable mental image! Except, Jonathan doesn't do pathetic looks. Well, not often, at least.

I got there just as he did, even though i was a quarter of an hour lte, for which I was thankful that I hadn't been early, or even on time and forced to wait for him. I have started to wonder whether or not he's stopped trying to be on time to meet me because I am always invariably late to most everything I have to attend. And, chances being if the other party is early, I shall be later than normal.

He didn't actually say hello to me, he simply commented on the awesome-ness of my hat. Which, admittedly was quite an awesome hat, but, still. A greeting is not overly difficult, or has human communication involing common courtesy become obsolete? Most probably in all honesty.
In any case, I managed to explain what was going on about Katie ( although with some resistance from my tongue which refused to form words properly for several seconds - much as my fingers seem to be emulating with my typing at this moment in type).
In any case, he seemed unphased and simply asked what I wanted to do instead. And, as we had decided we would go to the cinema on Thursday (making up for not going on Tuesday) he suggested we simply went then. Which we did.

We went to see 'Public Enemies' starring Johnny Depp and it was excellent. However, tremendously sad and tragic. I cried. Twice. But, we also managed to not have Orange Wednesday codes too, which was a well done on our part. So, as per, I paid. And, then Jonathan said that should be it on the whole my paying for cinema trips...although, really, I think I should still owe him at least two more cinema trips, if he wants to say that, fine with me. I won't take away his chance to be gallant, or whatever it is...

Anyway, after the film we went to Borders to get Jack a present, and then i said I wanted cake so we dropped in at Patisserie Valarie. I bought myself a chocolate chip muffin and then we walked to the park. Sometimes...I don't think he understands a thing about me, to be honest, but, he's a guy so he sees things in a different way to begin with. But, I think we became closer at the same time...possibly? Anyway, when we said goodbye I got a very nice hug etc. and spoke to him later that evening...he said one thing that confused me quite some deal though.

Next day I went to Wales etc. Got home on Monday morning. Didn't do much.
Jonathan's gone on holiday...won't see him for quite some time. But, will just have to get over it.
I am seriously starting to get confused about his sexuality...and it's scaring me actually. I don't even know why but there's gotta be something amiss when he flirts with another guy! Even if he's like extra anti hugging of guys etc in real life...it just strikes me as odd.
Anyway, I am going to trust him absolutely, and if god for bid things get to a point where I just don't know anymore, I might have to take Jamie's advice...

I'd better just forget about it.
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. I'd like to shoot someone right now. God, preferably if we knew for certain one way or the other (if he is real, I mean) and if he could be shot anyway if that were true.
I pretty much feel like he doesn't care about me one iota, I mean, he bloody replied to the main thread but not our private one, so, it's like, thanks. Arg. I'm almost glad I'm away when he gets back! I mean, what has he done to show me he likes me, really? FGS, I've been going out with him for , what, seven weeks and he hasn't even kissed me. Maybe I'm just repulsive. I don't know anymore. :'( I suppose I'm not exactly helping things myself, but, he's the guy, which may be stereotypical of me, but, call me old fashioned, if he likes me he should just show it. Because, as if I would ever reject him in any way. That's my biggest weakness.

I'm going to go and talk to Jamie about how unattractive we are for a while and then ask my mother if she'll buy me a DVD and a book tomorrow. Because Push is out on DVD now :)
Sorry for being angsty, just feeling low. I do miss him. It doesn't help when he seems not to care.
And that he didn't say goodbye to me on Monday when I spoke to him...
Well, I'm off.